summer's castaway
caught in winter's chilling embrace.
love that burrows deep,
to grip  emotions roots.
numbs all senses,
killing all desire.
alerts the consciousness 
moves a thought of loneliness.
her embrace is cold,
frost biting chill.
that thaws the desire,
that burns in me.

her touch is unfamiliar

so much that my body 

shudders in shock,

bewildered .

i wilt in her embrace.

refuse her advances.

she kills my lust,

when she attempts to dose 

my fire with her cold desire.

her little warmth,

yields little sustenance ,

but a strong desire to die,

to end this existence.

to abandon all.

my endurance dies,too

slowly,as these days,

move fast,

but seem never to end end.

a fast track towards eternity"s end.

this embrace is not home.

though her sun shines,

it' deceiving.

albeit murders the 

hope that lingered in me

at her sight.

her morning kisses,

that cold dew,

lives an aftertaste,

that burns me deep,

and my death is slow and evident

Marching towards our death
with false pride
fed by that which calls upon us
to like patriots, 
Fight for it's cause,
That is life,
mercenaries we are 
fighting for it for a mere pittance,

What is my soul worth?
I live for their gratification 
to please !!
Please it that enslaves me,
mind, heart, body and soul.
Takes away that little pride salvaged
from the castaways of life
Like a solider patriotic till death
to a cause they don't believe in,
For the sake of a morsel of bread,
a means to survive
Their pleasure comes by my sacrifice 

Too tired to be young
Too tired to care
Too Old to be worried,
Just another unexplained moment in life
Still to close to where you began
No where close to where you hoped to be.
And so the story continues.
How long,then,
How long will it take,
How long would you keep
treading upon the same place.
That place of hurt,failure and excuses.
Ask yourself how long.

my hearts bruised,walking  through savanna,
trying to  make way through thorny bush that does not feel for my heart, 
so soft and fragile,
opening flesh wounds that turn infected and failing to heal.
wounded i am,
and yet still i will proceed in my search
 hoping that that which i seek,
 will help sooth my pain.