been walkin through this tunnel....

Been walking through this tunnel,
feels my walk is eternal.
still trying to find the light,
that will calm my fear.
suicidal thoughts plague my head.
i'm a dead-man walking,
can't you see the vultures flocking.
death knocks on my door,
but fear i do not show.

i feel like i'm locked behind invisible bars,
quaratined like contracted s.a.r.s.
avoided like a leper
while this hatred gnaws deeper.

my body is weary'
because of this endless,aimless
wandering,
through these streets.
penting in eddies of dust,
in search of a path,an answer to these questions
feelings that pound my head.

i shuffle through these blues,
that fill my ears like a weights on my heart
and burdens me.
walking towards no redemption
but fear in the heart,
and faithlessness in my mind.

through my heart's eyes.

through my heart's eyes
i feel hope,
i see clear skies
and rainbows.
arms uplifted towards heaven,
receiving this light that feeds off my faith.
feeding on this atmosphere.
 cradled in the arms of comfort
suckling of the breast of nature.
so i may renew my faith.

there is hope in this song,
that plays on in the depths of my soul.
making my eyes dance,
dance with a sparkle,
that moves my body to vibrate to
the rhythm of this dance.
tirelessly,i dance
like this song is forever
and i have energy to dance,
and dwell in hope.

yesterday was a bad dream,
today i dream no more,
while tomorrow is a thought to far.
happiness is here,
joy is now,
elation is in the scope of my eye.
in sunshines,
rainbows and beautiful smiles,
in energetic dances,
and hope that never dies.
but sings on
 in every rising sun
and every cloudless day.

lonisome.

drifting through this vast endless indigo sky.
a fruitless journey,to the ends of the world.
still yearning for my hearts desire.
this heart leads me through this futile escapade.
searching barren skies,
showing a facade of false hope,
paving untraceable paths ,
till i'm lost,in this barrenness,loneliness of my desire.
like the the land i traverse,
vast as a child's fantasy.
loneliness grips me like this madness.
drives me to the edges of sanity.
while these emotions run deep,
into the bottomless depths of my soul.
my faith fades with each passing wind,
that pushes me further towards insanity.

i am at the mercy of my desires,
blown in whichever cardinal direction.
tormented soul,
restless,
seeking,
lost,
desiring.
this journey is tiresome.yet this desire keeps me drifting,
drifting....drifting.....away....away....away